Log in

my fucking soul hurts

Jul. 2nd, 2009 | 02:46 am

and they take me to the caves
the screaming echoes and bats are my peace.

I’m waiting for this to boil over
the air is hot and the water is hotter
but not enough,
I can’t take the waiting any more.
I curl into myself and release all hope.

Hiding under covers,
I'm leaking and freaking out
in that dark part of the room
I’m waiting for this to rage on
Watching others around me
calculating my thoughts
being careful not to let them slip over the edge
and into their hands.

I clipped my eyes out
So you can see right into me
I’m all that I am
let there be no mistake to what i can't do

I am the master digger
I can keep all this alone
I can keep this all within range of your trigger
Because I’m getting quicker and thicker.
My hands are too small to be held
and my eyes often change their mind.
I never match-- I’m telling you.
I’m in the dark part of the room

Staring at you with my ghostly eyes
And my damp skin
I didn’t become legless
I didn’t let them take me away
To a factory of unhappy people
Dressing and smelling like low self-esteem.
I refuse make myself match
When there’s not logical fit.
I sing again and again
Then I start to scream
Again and again.

Link | Leave a comment | Share


Jun. 9th, 2009 | 11:45 pm

so, a few weeks ago i cut my index open pretty deep while cashing a pipe that broke in my hand. I FUCKING HATE DEALING WITH CUTS AND INJURIES! (as most of you kn0w) I noticed, finally being healed,that skin grew back stronger and thicker.

Remember folks, this is new to me because i don't know shit about the human body. have never been to a biology, anatomy or sex ed class since 4th grade. not even in high school, i was excused from it. so realizing that i literally get stronger in the places i get hurt and heal from, blew me the fuck away.

so much swearing.

um, so this is proof that this "break" with bobby with be good. living alone in my own place with my two cats will be good. i will be able to learn to play the guitar and sing better. i have already reworked the existing TheVery songs and improved and changed my back up singing. as of now, out first show is at the soda bar in july. CAN'T COME SOON3R!!! i need to be out playing. this needs to take off. oh and, i'm playing a show with mermaid in august... scared? upset? pissed? no, because we are going to blow them out of the water. fucking haters

haven't been smoking as much
haven't been eating as much shitty food
haven't been sleeping all day as much

Link | Leave a comment {2} | Share

no text is going to give me head

May. 6th, 2009 | 10:34 pm

She is the girl that these broken hearts write about
nights in Hillcrest
can turn into nights in North Park
Good nights with us, let's remember that

There is always another band about to play
she had her head with one
and her heart with the other
the songs start to crowd the room
off her chair
up with people

Records spin as hope flies out the window

Link | Leave a comment | Share

best 420 eva!

Apr. 20th, 2009 | 11:42 pm
location: paradise

Today it was over 90 degree in the county of san diego. So, how did I enjoy the lovely, but scorching day? I went to beautiful La Jolla beach for a kayaking tour.

I went with bob's visiting sister and brother in law. I wore plenty of spf and managed to not get burned. I feel like my mom would be proud. When it comes to skin safety, I doontt pheck around with it.

After three hours of exploring the entire cove, we were finally paddling to shore and we saw: leopard sharks, a jelly fish, and a huge sea turtle. I don't normally do outdoor activities like that. It was good for me to get outside of my comfort zone.

Tomorrow? Back to coffee, failing accounting, hours of more classes, french grammar exercises and then an evening working at STyleS!!! Daily grind, c'est la vie!

me kayakingme, gearing up

view the view from deep off the coast

cavesss some cavessssssss

Link | Leave a comment {1} | Share

(no subject)

Mar. 25th, 2009 | 07:43 pm

i have a twitter
my name is PureLaine on it
umm what does it do? i couldn't really figure it out!

Link | Leave a comment {8} | Share

(no subject)

Nov. 25th, 2008 | 11:34 am

when i woke up this morning, i asked myself the question i always ask when my day invovled non-french classes... should i go?

i slowly make my way over the computer to see what my grade is for the class and when i see i got a 100 on the midterm that was fucking really hard and took me two hours to do.. i was like sweet i have an A- in this class. no way am i going.

i have 2 A's and a B and one F from accounting. but since i'm taking it over again next semester the F will be erased with my new grade so my GPA won't be hurt. currently my GAP is 3.2 ...not bad but if i could be a 3.5 HELL YA.

haha i care way too much about this shit. and its funny because i never go to non-french class.

Link | Leave a comment | Share

(no subject)

Nov. 19th, 2008 | 10:39 pm

some say she was in love with madonna
by the way she covered her arms

oh we used to say she was in love with her
and we all believed

We are on the verge of this
this thing that's happening here
and  we becoming aware
she's saving this

she saves her eyes inside her pockets
she leaks her tears when she slide in
and she becoming aware
she's strangling this
she's saving this

Link | Leave a comment | Share

(no subject)

Aug. 21st, 2008 | 09:02 pm

and they tried to burry me
but instead under the ground
i grew-
and up and up i flew

Link | Leave a comment | Share

(no subject)

Aug. 4th, 2008 | 09:46 pm

i'm over the west coast.

i have no where to live as of sunday.

Link | Leave a comment {1} | Share

(no subject)

May. 31st, 2008 | 10:36 am

its time for another mermard road trip! i'm so excited. sucks we aren't getting a hotel but i bet it will be better (cheaper)
umm so we're kinda a big deal now eh?

Link | Leave a comment | Share